I'm Exhausted.

My newish job of working at Starbucks has me completely wiped, as I'm trying to prepare for the commencement of classes on Tuesday. I haven't been sleeping well for weeks, and I've been nauseous non-stop for the past three days. I suppose pregnancy would be the first cause many people would think of, but I find it quite unlikely. However, I've been totally obsessed with babies recently, which I find really confusing since my relationship with my beloved sister has changed so much since the birth of Desmond. He's two weeks old today, and as much as I adore him, I can't help but feel sad at the prospect of never having the same relationship (or role, for that matter) with my sister ever again. I also find it very confusing to see my sister in so much pain (which is ongoing due to the nightmare that is breastfeeding and an awful episiotomy), caused by such a beautiful and wondrous little being. I guess it would be fair to say that I am feeling very conflicted.